♥ Saturday, October 20, 2007
i feel tat i am really hopeless..
suddenly i really felt tat my heart ache..
really dunno y..
and somehow my asthma seems 2 be acting again..
feeling veri terrible nw..
doe hav medicine..
and also cannot go c doctor..
ltr my mum surely found out de..
ltr i die again..
last time i also go c doctor myself..
in the end she scold me till siao..
cause i go there 4 fun onli..
juz wanna take a mc..
lame right..??
hai..
there is really somethings i wanna say..
but i really doe hav the courage 2 say..
how..??
i am really trying veri hard le..
but when i wanna try..
its nt the right time..
i really dunno wad am i thinking..
really..
somehow i tink tat i am realy veri stupid..
maybe when i hav the courage 2 say its alr too late le ba..
i really hope tat i can hav the courage 2 say nw..
i really veri fan..
dunno whether i should say..
i onli know tat if i doe say..
i will regret de..
haiz..
try ba..
nw wad i really wan say is tat i really miss my dar..
haiz..
hope i can c him right nw..
but i know its impossible..
but i juz can't stop thinking..
lol..
its fate ba..
when i look back..
i really felt tat maybe i had hurt some ppl..
and really felt veri bad..
sometimes it can really change a person's life..
and i regret..
really..
if tat time i didn do tat decision..
maybe he won't become lyk tat nw..
he changed..
and i really cannot believe tat he was the person tat i met on the 1st day of sku..
he changed maybe its nt all cause of me..
but the truth is tat i really hurt him much ba..
tat time i doe really hav a choice..
hai..
juz wanna say sry 2 him..
i really doe mean it..
i know he is trying 2 avoid me..
but really hope tat he won't avoid me cause we can still be gd frens..
when i 1st step into tis sku..
a lot of things really happen 2 me..
and sometimes really feel lyk changing sku..
cause maybe tis sku is nt suitable 4 me ba..
but maybe its lyk tat ba..
starting of the yr i alr hav quite a few rumours le..
but slowly its even worse..
its getting more and more..
and i doe tink i can stand it..
but luckily nowadays no more rumours le..
wad a relieved..
hahas..
if nt i nw really can go die le..
nw juz hope tat i can be happy everyday..^^
♥Loving God wholeheartedly and Loving People fervently.
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