♥ Sunday, May 11, 2008
09/05 fri.
it was my last paper and i should be happy.
but it was the other way round..
and i was sick and maths i skipped a lot of qns.
then confirm fail..
ok.
nw talk bout band.
was damn sway and sadding.
haiz.
lost my band file.
i am really useless leh.
but i really put it in band rm and i never touched it since aft montage.
i dunno why it is lost.
was damn disappointed with myself.
starting of the band i alr told him that i lost it.
but he just tell me to go and look for it asap.
but aft that when he started conducting,
he want 3 clarinet to blow the important part ma.
then i told him that i lost my file again.
this time dunno why laa...
he memory lost issit?
just nw tell me to photocopy it asap.
then nw he suddenly very angry and tell me to get out.
and say he dont want see my face.
whatever la.
then i was angry and sad at the same time.
then went out.
mr ng talked to me.
then suddenly mr foo angry till came out.
then mr ng tell me to go over sin hua there first.
then sin hua was teaching the juniors about counting.
juniors cannot take it.
cause the way he teach was boring..
then they kepy saying they want break.
then i was like,
tell sin hua to give them a break lor..
then i suddenly breakdown.
and cry..
haiz..
long time never cry le.
then juniors came and tell me to relax and do things to made me laugh.
was very thankful.
=)
then i was shocked.
yvo also kana leh.
she also cried.
then aft that was more shocking..
whole percussion kana also.
then xiu xia got one water bottle.
she dont want liao.
then i used that to vent my anger.
then one thing.
i wanna say sry to him.
cause i vent my anger on him.
sry sry!!
then haiz..
sat band.
yvo kana again.
dont be sad girl!
then i was having nightmare nowadays AGAIN.
i was really stressed up.
I CANT TAKE IT.
NOBODY CAN UNDERSTAND ME.
THATS WHAT I CAN SAY.
BUT TMR I AM VERY SCARE.
BUT I MUST FACE THE PROB.
AFT BAND I AM GOING TO BREAKDOWN AGAIN.
NOW WHAT I CAN SAY IS THAT MY MIND REALLY GOT PROBLEM LIAOS.
I CRIED AND I WILL THINK OF DOING CRAZY THINGS LEH.
I AM CRAZY.
I AM REALLY CRAZY.
AND I CANT FORGET THAT SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED TO ME.
AND I FINALLY FOUND ONE PERSON THAT I CAN TALK TO.
I MUST THANK HER.
REALLY..
TMR I HOPE SHE CAN REALLY HELP ME
THAT SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED TO ME WAS REALLY SCARY.
CAN SAY THAT ITS IS MAKING ME LIKE HELL..
FOR SOME OF MY FRIENDS THEY WILL KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING BOUT.
I DONT WISH TO ELABORATE.
IT REALLY MAKE ME FEEL LIKE COMMIT SUCIDE.
I WILL NEVER FORGET WHAT HAD HAPPENED.
NEVER.
♥Loving God wholeheartedly and Loving People fervently.
7:06:00 PM
