♥ Tuesday, May 27, 2008
I used to be a pure thinking little girl who has never walked on the rough roads of life.
I no longer have that innocent,
optimistic view of things around me anymore.
I seem to have adopted a hard personality,
building a wall between me and other people that makes me look so unapproachable and stuck up.
I guess it's unavoidable when i've been constantly hurt by the harsh reality of life.
Only when i started this blog,
then i realised the realistic side of people.
i was so disappointed by how some people get close to you just to leverage on you.
I have 'friends' who are always having a motive behind when they ask me out or talk to me.
Most of the time,
they just want me to promote them in my blog.
I feel upset knowing that im just a tool for them to use.
Alot of them just throw me away to a corner after they got what they want.
Actually,
i wouldn't mind that much if they just come up to me and tell me they want to be famous.
What i dislike the most is when people acts like a friend,
acts so close to you,
just so that they can get what they want.
And when someone else that can help them get closer to their target easier comes along,
they moved on to the next target and forget all about me,
the old tool.
Alright, other than that,
Sometimes i think people just dont understand...
especially people that are close to me.
♥Loving God wholeheartedly and Loving People fervently.
10:36:00 PM
