♥ Saturday, September 26, 2009
ok i'm not in a great mood nowww .
25/9 , friday .
late for schoolll .
had chinese class test .
ok sure fail .
can't concentrate at all .
after school went to do mooncake for a while ,
slack slack with renfang , elaine , xiangying , kaixun
watched a bit of soccer match .
manjusri vs broadrick .
we lost .
lols .
& met up with michelle & huizhen ,
didn't went for mooncake celebration .
went for cgm instead .
i felt your presence today father .
it was soo strong .
i can't stop crying .
then when cgm was ending ,
i felt soo ps .
i can sense that ppl looking at me sia .
'cause i cried like mad -.-
anyw ,
26/9 , saturday
just now met weixing @ sp mac .
studied a bit .
ha .
die la .
don't know why i can't seem to focus & i can't stop talking !
my irritating mouth ah .
in the end ,
only did a bit of maths & filp through chem .
chem is soo irritatingggg .
i guess i'll flung it for sure .
actually wanted to rush down & go for service ,
but it was already 5 plus .
rush down confirm late one nor .
soooooo we went kfc instead .
after that waffle factory .
ha .
fattening lehhh .
& we walked around ,
& my mum called .
she wanted me to go bugis with her again .
but this time ,
i was damn fucked up .
nbcb lo .
i waited for her @ bugis for an hour .
ok this one , leave it , i'm ok with waiting .
next i told her i wanna go face shop to get some things .
then she kpkb again .
say i spend money blahblahblah .
but i paid using my own money leh .
almost everything i use my own money already .
what she want .
she also go for shopping what .
don't tell me she don't .
& i said i wanna get shampoo blah3 .
she was like ,
wanna scream @ me liao .
ok nevermind ,
this one i can tolerate .
next she say she don't know which shop to go ,
i suggested 77th street .
& i saw some clothes ,
telling her i want to buy .
know what she said ?
she said no .
expected .
but she v. what sia .
she added on ,
"i wanna get some clothes for your brother . come help me choose . "
wtf lo .
win liao .
ok la i helped her in choosing ,
but she still complain leh .
she promised to go body shop to get some things for me ,
but everytime she'll forget .
for sure .
if not she will say ,
don't buy la don't buy la .
walau .
what is this sia .
i don't think i'm her daughter lo .
so what if i'm a gal ?
you cannot show care & concern for me la ?
ya la ya la .
i know what your thinking la hor .
i wanna get out of this houseeee .
immediately !
lols .
too bad .
cannot lo .
nb ccb .
seriously ,
she don't even care for me .
unless somethings really bad/nasty happened to me ,
then she will start to care .
wtf .
if that's the case ,
ma , i'm really speechless .
don't force me to do nasty things .
which i hate to .
want another case to happen ?
sure .
i'll grant your wish .
but ,
don't go crazy . ('cause i know you will .)
don't come & stop me from doing this or that . ('cause i won't care . )
don't regret .
'cause my heart is dead .
i don't know what is love .
sometimes ,
i wonder ,
should i help my mum or dad ?
should i just help them end everything ?
few days back i was afraid that they'll divorce ,
fews day later i wish they'll divorce 'cause i see no point for them to stay together .
my heart aches .
i can only depend on you ,
father .
stay close with me , don't go .p/s readers ,
today i blogged all my thoughts out .
i know that's pretty boring/sian/boliao/whatever la hor .
but i just can't help it .
there's no one i can turn to .
i wish to see my gal asap .
i need her badly .
Labels: can anyone tell me what's love ?
♥Loving God wholeheartedly and Loving People fervently.
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