♥ Wednesday, October 28, 2009
"Going into a relationship is sucha waste of time, waste of heart and waste of trueness. In love you don’t reap what you’ve sow. So don’t even bother trying to reap the exact amount you’ve sowed, cause it doesn’t work this way. Don’t bother even trying, or maybe dreaming will be a better word, about a love that will never die. ‘Cause love will never stay for too long. People get tired of the old ones when they see new ones. There're those type of people which ppl normally define them as ‘hongsters’, but actually being a hongster has no wrong what. Its just that their feelings come and go like free flow. You can’t stop them from loving you this moment and the next second they fall in love with another. Its how the way their hearts’ supposed to function. Come on, not everyone can do until faithful. Its not totally their fault what. Those guys or girls that got hurt in the process of love is called stupid. So what if you fall out of love? Just get your fucking ass off the ground, fucking stand on your feet and fucking continue walking forward. The past does not mean the present and the present does not equal to the future. People changes, its not their fault that mother nature built humans to be like this. Nobody can stay in one way forever. No wait, for the rest of their lives i mean. ‘Cause forever does not exist."
Don’t have to try show me what’s true love called. I’m sick and tired of this nonsense. I know what’s love, love is about giving and not taking. Love is about tolerating each other’s flaws. I know how to love, love is about loving unconditionally and not expecting anything in return. But i don’t practice what i preach. 'cause i don’t have the patience. I can’t mold the guys that i love into who i want them to be. I can’t accept the heartache that love gives 'cause i can’t take pain. And eventually i gave up totally on love. No, i did not receive alot of hurts and pains to push every guy that loves me, away. I don’t know how & why i’ve become like this. pushing love away from my life? Yes , i admit , i fall in love easily & i'm easily attracted to ppl . But when it comes to forget , i can't seems to forget the ones that i loved at all . Now that my heart’s cold and i don’t need love to warm it up, my blood’s black and i don’t need love to make it become red again. Don’t blame me that you fell in love with me. ‘Cause i did not do anything deliberately to make you fall in love with me. I hate to pretend and to act, so you fell in love with me is not my fault. This applies to all the boys out there. Don’t hate me, cause its something called, wasting time. Don’t love me, cause it also falls into the category of wasting time. Be as heartless as you can when it comes to stop loving.
♥Loving God wholeheartedly and Loving People fervently.
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