♥ Thursday, November 26, 2009
i miss my gals alreadyyyyy )))):
been working .
from monday until todayyy .
tmrw & friday @ kfc .
hmmm )))):
i can't go out with my galssssss .
i wanna go out & chillll .
i wanna go out with clarin's sisterrr .
i wanna go out with chuchu , a lot moreeeee .
i wanna go genting .
i wanna go malaysia visit my relatives .
i wanna go back band .
i wanna go gym .
i wanna learn guitar .
i wanna learn dance .
i wanna go kbox .
i wanna go shopping AGAIN .
& I GOT TO FINISH MY HOLIDAY HOMEWORK .
how can i do all these stuffs in a month ?
wtf , you got to be crazyyy .
i don't wanna go crazy yetttt .
from monday till now ,
i learnt a lot of things .
i grown more mature .
wooo .
that's great .
buttt my hands are damn dry nowww .
thanks to that job of mine .
nono , stop complaining .
higher pay means you got to do moreee .
oh . & my friend told me to speak slower & louder when im talking -.-
she says im talking too fast .
lol .
haiissh .
i think i got to follow my heart , i'll go back band .
i shouldnt live in the past .
i should move on , face the fact that mr foo will never come back to our school & teach & just bloody helll be guai guai & listen to the new condutor .
i myself know that i love music & i can't live without it , so , bobian .
just go back lo .
if i not don't go back now , i'll regret .
for sure .
i don't wanna miss 2011's SYF .
i still wanna go on the stage to perform .
i don't want any regrets in my sec school life .
life's short , i can't afford to miss a thing .
although my music foundation is dropping , but i'm sure with the help of the new conductor , i can be better .
i miss being a QM in band .
i just miss everything .
sadly , i made a wrong choice last time .
no point crying nowww .
which i really feel like .
oke , since young , i cry a lot .
i admit i'm a cry baby .
but just can't help it laaaa .
oke , this is going to be a long post .
i got lots of things to voice out .
if you guys don't wanna read on , just click on the exit on the left .
i don't care how boring/long/sian/boliao this post is going to be .
this is my blog , my say .
not happy , just siam .
fuck off .
my mood turns haywire when i thought/see my dad .
see how much i hate him ?
he's nothing but bastard .
oke , i love guys that are caring .
i don't need my guy to be romantic .
no need .
all i need is his care & concern ,
i need him to answer my calls , reply my messages on time , be there when i need him , calls me every night , cook for me .
i need a guy who can understand me , accept my past , be willing to stay by my side when i need him .
no matter how much i love that guy , if he can't meet my needs , i'll just let go .
no point clinging on .
yes , i admit .
i can't be a great girlfriend .
i'm not loving , trust is not in my dictionary anymore .
i know , i can't let things affect my way of thinking .
but , i just can't help it .
i've seen too much .
i can't trust anyone .
what i know is that , no r/s can last .
maybe your feels that my thinking is totally wrong .
but thats what i think .
last time i swear or whatever or bloody hell said that i wanna get married @ 19 & settle down for a family in a year time .
oke , thats stupid & impossible .
no more .
i don't wanna get married that early .
i'm the one that loves to play , have fun .
& i can't face a same guy everyday .
it makes me feel sooo siannnnn .
imagine facing a guy for 15years or more everyday ?
ohmygod .
i'll die .
but maybe next time my thinking will change , but for now noooooo .
i thought about my family situation everyday , & i'll ask myself , is this what i get everyday ?
or is this what they want ?
pleasepleaseplease .
i want a happy family .
why others can but i can't ?
i felt empty .
i need love leh ello .
i always feel lonely when i'm @ home .
so i don't like to stay homeeee .
& my mama love to kp me .
i say a lot of times already , that im not with my boyfriend im not with my boyfriend i dont have boyfriend i dont have boyfriend .
i broke off with him months ago .
& she just dont believe me .
everytime i go out she will call me & ask me to go homeeeee .
& anyhow laaaa .
assume that i'm with my exboyfriend .
not funny @ all
wthhhhhh .
feel like killing herrr .
sooo irritating .
dont trust me then dont talk to me laa .
you think i care you think i care ?
just leave me alone .
i can't imagine i got to face those shits all by myself .
oke , diam .
later breakfast with vonnnnnn .
hopefully i can wake upppp .
♥Loving God wholeheartedly and Loving People fervently.
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