♥ Friday, December 25, 2009
I'm happily smiling , but deep inside , my heart is crying .
do you know how hurt i'm .
no you don't .
yes , i know .
my fault , everything's my fault .
oke ?
i'm sorry if i did hurt you badly .
but do you ever notice that @ times , you hurt me too ?
did you ever care ?
no you didn't .
stop hurting me & treating me this way , please .
take it as i beg you .
i can't take it .
i'm trying to be strong .
everytime i wanted to cry out , i tell myself , tell myself that it's just nothing .
it's just that i think too much & it's not worth my tears .
but as time goes by , i find that i really can't take it .
i wanna cry out .
i must stop deceiving myself .
i want the old us .
stop changing .
or is it i'm the one who's changing ?
i know i should care for you more .
i'm not a good girlfriend , i know .
i realise my mistakes .
i won't just let our r/s goes like that .
i won't let things happen & it's not going to happen .
i will prove to you that i'm strong , i can change & i love you like no other gals will , miss you like no other gals will .
i can only express my feelings here .
darling , i'm not good in explaining .
it took my hour to type this out .
i hope you understand me .
i'm crying while typing this .
b , you will never know how much i love you .
i miss you b .
happy 1st month anni in advance my dear .
we won't get to meet each other but , for the next monthsary , i want it to be better than this .
i love you .
♥Loving God wholeheartedly and Loving People fervently.
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