♥ Monday, June 28, 2010
What a awesome
Bbq i had with E458 today! :) Love it! Did a lot of things today, played a lot, ate a lot, so on and so forth. But one thing that i did today, which
i'm so proud of myself, is that i finally did it. I finally did it. I can't believe it either but yes, and
i'm so happy till i cried.
I could had took
Mrt with the brothers home just now, but i didn't. I chose to take bus with you. Because i could felt something, i felt that God wants me to take bus instead of
mrt. So, i did. And when we boarded bus, i felt something stronger and have the urge to tell you, share with you what i felt all this while. And so, i did. I thought you will be annoyed, i thought you will get angry and probably just walk off or stay slient. But you didn't. I was pretty shocked. I realised that you really matured a lot., which i'm happy to see that. And after what we both shared, my heart felt peace. In the first place i wonder how you felt, but after receiving a text from you saying you're being set free by what i had said, i was so happy and touched. That's when i know my effort didn't gone to waste, and that's when i know that what i felt earlier on wasn't wrong. And finally, this day has come, and that's when i can treat you like a best friend, caring for you as a sister or friend, opening and without feeling the fearness i had in me earlier on. Everything is going to change from tmrw onwards. And i'm so glad that what i had wanted from the beginning had came, although i had some struggles, and finally this is the day that i can show it, prove it to ppl that i can do it. Nothing is impossible because i have God in me. Nothing could describe how i feel right now, nothing, only God knows how happy i am :) I'm so glad i did it.
Most importantly, i just want to tell you that, I love you, best friend! Never going to leave you alone :) So dont you even dare to leave me! Haha :)
Lastly, i want to tell a particular someone whom was once the love of my life, if you know who you are. Although i know you won't get to read it because i guess you have forgotten and you won't even bother to come to this page anymore. I just want to tell you that i really do love you, i really do. But it's not up to be to decide whether to be with you or not. Things are complicated but you won't understand because you aren't me. Tiffany have been telling me a lot and really a lot, since the starting of the year but initially, i let her down, i promised her to get over you but i didn't. But from today onwards, i'm proud to say that i'm over you but i still do love you, as a friend, no matter what. Though i know that i won't be able to have the chance to tell you the exact truth, but i guess there isn't a need, because you're out of my life and there's no point letting you know too :) So that's about it, school later on ): Byeeee.
Labels: i'm glad that we made it :), Tiffany
♥Loving God wholeheartedly and Loving People fervently.
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